My story - JNH

I want to share my story... I’ve had the few people I’ve told about this give me feedback to share it. I hope you read this with an open mind and an even bigger heart...

On December 29th I tried to commit suicide. My husband was at home watching my 5 month old son at the time. He and my son were in a completely different area of the house and I was in a room alone. I took some of my prescribed medicines to take some of the pain I had been struggling with since having Arthur. I have always struggled with depression and anxiety. Since having Arthur at the time, my hormones and mood was messed up. I calmly went to my husband and explained what had happened. We decided after speaking to my Psychiatrist to call an ambulance because my kidneys could quickly fail. The ambulance took me to a nearby ER for evaluation. I was treated like an animal. Put in a tiny box of a room with a paper outfit and everything was metal. Within 30 minutes of me getting there a lovely DHR employee, came into my room. 30 minutes after said events. I had not seen a doctor and my mom was just getting there. She demanded I sign something called a “safety plan.” If I did not they would take Arthur. No option given to my mother... fast forward everything’s over with at the hospital I am released and we hire an attorney. She explains that DHR gets a very hefty grant with every child that is taken into foster care, taken out of the parents life, put up for adoption, and adopted. They encourage foster parents to try to get these parents to wave their rights. 20 days later I go to a meeting called an ISP. I sign numerous documents saying I’m not allowed to be unsupervised with Arthur. Yes, you heard that right. With every move I make with my son, someone has to watch me. I’m considered a safety risk. Yet, Arthur was NEVER in danger. He has everything he wants and needs. When he cries I cry. He’s never gone hungry, always has a clean diaper. I even overreact, as most new moms due, and take him to the pediatrician over everything. I love him. Fast forward to March. I receive a letter stating I was indicated (guilty) of child neglect and endangerment. I was heartbroken. What they were saying was illegal! Was crazy! I was broken. April 1st the safety plan was lifted and they left my life. Since March we have been fighting with Lauderdale DHR trying to get my records so we can get in front of a judge and prove what they are saying is false and a outright LIE! Alabama state law says nothing about what they are saying... I want to celebrate but the truth is. I am in DHR’s system. I can’t work with elderly people or in the education department. I WAS going to go back to school to reach my dream of being a school teacher.. I’m still not free.

Ladies and gentleman who read this, let me explain something... DHR is EVIL! They lie, manipulate, and ruin parents lives. They take innocent people like my husband and myself and throw a safety plan in our face and demand we sign it so they can make money. I was told by an attorney they love to take little blonde hair, blue eyed babies because they go like hot cakes! If you are going to school to be a social worker please don’t! I don’t care what I have to say. My life has been a living hell for the past almost 7 months. I’ve spent hours crying myself to sleep, begging God to help me, praying to God to help me get justice. Even my doctor who fosters children, loves fostering, hates DHR! They lie to foster parents and tell them they have drug children but the truth is, many are not and have had manipulation thrown at them.

My story is true. I am a GOOD mom! I want to fight DHR. If anyone knows of someone who can help me fight DHR, I’ll give them all the money we fight them for... I just want them to feel the weight of their disgusting actions. I want justice! If you don’t believe me, do a quick Facebook search of all the groups who have had parents go through the same thing...

Mental health is so important to talk about. Suicide rates are on the rise. If we don’t talk about it, nothing will change. I’m not ashamed of what happened to me. So many moms struggle with PPD and hormone issues. I want to raise awareness that we are not perfect and there is nothing wrong with struggling with mental health issues. God gave us medicine and doctors for a reason! Let’s do more and stop being afraid to speak up.

Thank you for reading. I pray that God helps you see the pain I’ve been through and maybe as a new mom, you don’t go through what I did. God bless.

Isaiah 54:17
“NO weapon forged against ME will prevail, and I will refute every tongue that accuses ME. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is their vindication from me," declares the LORD.